A l i g n m e n t

Friend, I’m going to start this post by sharing what I’ve struggled with in this season of my life. Then, I’m going to share how God has been speaking to me through the struggle.

The struggles have looked like wrestling through tensions of:

–> rejoicing in what God has done // feeling anxious about tomorrow.

–> desiring to be in the Word // just not feeling motivated to put in the work.

–> feeling my feelings // bottling them up because I’m tired of feeling them.

–> choosing to be grateful // choosing self-pity.

–> feeling hopeful for eternity // feeling low about the present moment.

–> focusing on my mission as a Christian // feeling discombobulated in general.

–> sharing boldly // shrinking back.

–> feeling excited to love people // feeling unmotivated to love people when it’s hard.

–> feeling ready for a purpose-filled day // feeling stuck in dread and sometimes anger.

–> sitting in my grief // trying to escape my grief.

Whether or not you can relate to some of the tensions I’ve felt off and on, I know that we all experience tensions in general. They are real because we live in a really broken world. As a pastor said once, “we are products of eternity placed into time.”

Not too long ago, the Lord placed the desire to live in alignment with him on my heart. When this word first came to my mind, I wasn’t quite sure where to go from there. Living in alignment with God could mean and involve so many things. It almost felt overwhelming to think about. So I set these thoughts aside for a little while. Until I revisited them last week.

My purpose for this blog is to encourage you in your walk with God, just as much as I hope to encourage myself in my walk with God. So, I’m going to share two moments that I’ve experienced with God that have been helpful as I’ve been reflecting and wrestling with what this looks like.

The first is a conversation I had with God at the beach.

I told the Lord that I desire to live in alignment with his heart…and then I asked him “how do I do this? What does this look like?”

He replied:

Daughter, simply spend time with me. My hope is that you will long to be with me just as I long to be with you. Pour yourself into scripture because I have much to show you and teach you. I will honour your pursuit of me. I love you, and one day soon you will know just how much.

Living in alignment with me looks like treasuring me fully. When you treasure me, above everything, joy will take root in your heart. Your desire to serve my people, including your family, will grow. You will recognize every untrue thought and choose to release it to me. Your intolerance for sin will grow, and this is good. You will surrender things sooner to me the more you trust me. Your eyes will see me in places you couldn’t see me in before. The affections of your heart will change.

This moment with God was so special and my hope skyrocketed. Spending time in his presence is life-changing. I came away from this time feeling encouraged and uplifted, and puzzled about why I struggle so much with prioritizing quality time with him.

Just today I realized that even though I’ve been working to memorize Romans 12, I hadn’t taken much time to ponder the words and to consider its application for my life. So I took a moment to review Romans 12:1-2, and oh my goodness! Several lightbulbs went off in my brain which have left me feeling rattled. I’ll put the passage below so you can read it before I continue:

I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.

In a nutshell, a bunch of questions came to mind that I plan on pondering and wrestling with which are very much in alignment with my desire to be in alignment with God. I will share these questions with you if you would also like to ponder them.

#1 –> Am I presenting my body as a living sacrifice to God?

#2 –> Am I living a holy life that is acceptable to God?

#3 –> What does this look like?

#4 –> Am I worshiping God in the way he yearns for me to worship him?

#5 –> What is conforming me to the world today? Tomorrow? In this season?

#6 –> How can my mind be RENEWED so that I can be transformed?

#7 –> Do I value God’s will enough to change how I’m living?

#8 –> Do I actually desire what is good and acceptable and perfect?

#9 –> If I do, does my life reflect those desires?

#10 –> If my life doesn’t, what needs to change? What do I need to surrender? Add?

According to Oxford Dictionary, the definition of “tension” (referring to the beginning of this post) is

a relationship between ideas or qualities with conflicting demands or implications

And the definition of “alignment” is

a position of agreement or alliance

I love how God met me where I was at when I was pondering the tensions I was feeling, and placed the word alignment on my heart. The two words are quite opposite. He really did teach me something through my struggle.

One action step I’m going to take in aligning myself with the Lord is to intentionally set aside a few moments in the afternoon or evening to be in his presence. My early mornings are dedicated to the Lord, but I also want to remember to intentionally be with him throughout my day. Some afternoons it might look like a prayer walk around my neighbourhood, and other days it might look like writing out what I’m grateful for and sticking it to my mirror. Or perhaps lighting a candle and making space in my environment and heart to listen to him in solitude.

What action step might you take to align yourself with the Lord’s heart today? Is there something you’ve been wanting to do but haven’t implemented yet? I encourage you to consider taking a step right now. It doesn’t have to be big.

Some closing thoughts:

What if this year, 2021, was all about falling in love with God like never before? And the year after that, and after that?

What if I aimed for unhindered union with Jesus everyday?

What if I prayed every day for the Lord to help me live a holy life in alignment with his heart?

One last encouragement to you: remember that no matter where you are in your walk with God, he is so pleased with you, simply for being you.

You are so loved.

2 thoughts on “A l i g n m e n t

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  1. Hi Sharaya Twinkle! Wow! You have a lot on your mind alright! Lots of challenging spiritual growth thoughts. Romans 12:1-2 is one my favourite verses … be transformed by the renewing of our minds! Big challenge there! I like your summary – wherever you are in your walk with God – don’t feel guilty or stressed out – relax and rest in Him b/c you are his child and He is for you, not against you. Love from Michael the Discombobulated!


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